Monday, October 27, 2008

What it should be...

Such love I cannot analyse;
It does not rest in lips or eyes,
Neither in kisses nor caress.
Partly, I know, it's gentleness

And understanding in one word
Or in brief letters. It's preserved
By trust and by respect and awe.
These are the words I'm feeling for.

Two people, yes, two lasting friends.
The giving comes, the taking ends.
There is no measure for such things.
For this all Nature slows and sings.



-Elizabeth Jennings
Hold on
I know it's hard.
I know it's hard.
Hold on.
Hold on. Hold on.
Don't do this thing,
Don't give in to it.
Don't give into this.
You are worth more than that.
You are worth more
More to Him.
More to me.
You are worth more than that.
Don't beg, don't cry,
Don't whimper.
It's hard.
Be a man about this.
Be strong.
People need you.
They are counting on you
They depend on you.
Don't give this up.
Don't give in to this.
Letting the smoke rise
from his lips,
he continued to fume
Fume, the fumes
And he continued to allow
The worst thing.

And he died.

Don't die.
Don't give into this.
Let things go.
Let the things heal.
Don't allow it to take you with it.
That's not fair.
It isn't fair.
Half a world away
There are the people who really need you
There are the people you run from
The dirty laundry in the past
Comes back to haunt.

So how about instead of laying it out
For all the world to see,
Clean it
Cleanse it
Cleanse your soul.
Let all this crap go away.
You have a mind,
You are brilliant enough to
get it all out of the way.

It has nothing to do with you.
It has nothing to do.
Go.
Get out of here.
Why do you stare?
Why do you come to gawk?
Gaping at the two.
The two in the sand
The two in the dark.
Leave me. Leave us.
We will survive.
We have what is necessary to survive.
And you do too.
You do not need us
You do not love us.
And we need you to leave so that we can go
Into this world and love it
The way it deserves
Without you staining all of our
Clean clothes
With your filthy memories.

Leave us.
Leave us.

There are no times for this.
There is no time.

Leave these tears,
Find a place to put them.
Let them be a pillow on which can rest
Your broken hearts
And follow us down the road
To glory and honor and
Time with our father.
Pureness and peace that those
Terse ones will never know.
Pureness and peace that the ones
Who go east will never see until
The end has come to this story.

Don't end it all until the end that must come
Must come.
Don't end it at all until the end that must come
Comes in the depths of a
Life well-lived, well ended.
Life can be well lived.
You have to begin to give the gift
You were meant to give.
So live.
You must stop this folly.

Don't bathe in your smouldering perfume.
Don't bathe in your misery,
Your battles, don't fall.
I'm telling you.
Don't fall. Don't fall.
You are not an autumn leaf,
You are not the winter's chill,
Nor are you the summer worms that
Squirm, be still.
Don't squirm. Be still.

Don't drive, don't bathe,
Don't smoke, don't wave out
of all of existance, I beg of you.
I beg of you to stay a while.
Smile that smile I love it
I love that smile that smile.
Don't let go.
Don't be so sad all the time.
Don't listen to me so much
Where is your heart,
Where is your heart?
Hold.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Today I awoke,
The same as yesterday.
I have already grieved this.
I have nothing more to say.

Monday, October 06, 2008

Septuagenarian

Vienna. Ninety-eight years before and one day after
I was born.
There was a heave below the stairs.
He was born.
A shout.
a game.
An exemplar.
There she sat, svelte and alone.
Yesterday. All the love that seemed
A game to play. Now we need a place
to stick our prototypical members away from the
bigots of birds.
Until the person,
the septuagenarian person, resembling a taxon of adjudicate sorites.
There garbled the nonsense in logic way.
I would love to see you extrapolate that meaning,
but you shant, rather you shall interpolate the regard.
Poor Aladdin. The sequel shall make sequelae through a means
I won't disclose,
for fear of embarressing the sequel.
Shell you get the memes out
Autonoma, authority, autonoma, authority.
"Oddly enough," this recinding
Repetitious, recondite way is going to bludgeon
the sentience out of your fiber tracts.
This, until googols of chimeral ways shall find that
Life is a series of dead lines.
There was a time when things were remembered.
And now it is a time of things being forgotten.
The friend has fallen. New friends will need to be made.
Life is not a bocks of chocolates, nor a lemon-hedged bet.
Nor a madeleine cake to be baked an enjoyed.
Life is a kite unflown, ever able to reach and soar to heights
Yet never able to reach them without its wind.
The decoction of the spyglass of her eyes ever haunts me.
Me.
The winds of scrutiny and the sands of hesitance will ever follow me there.
The qualia of bitterness followed everywhere, particularly in the dictionary. From the gangly armed gibbon to the varicose veined vulture...is there anyone pinker around here?
The terseness in her jaw followed me.
The mise en scene has been set. It is kibbitz.
The humunculus sat in the spoon, jeering at me.
I could hardly stand the sun.
Then there was damage to the anterior cingulate sulcus, which
prevented going to two weddings to dance, for we each possess
only one.

Tuches.

They would sooner believe in a dybbuk than take credit for their actions.

To think that such a thing runs afoul to the fortuitous reasoning that intelligence
hath a form.
Would you rather a shooting star or a stethescope?
The carburetor stops, we get off the bus in the snow.
You would rather, truly impugn the ways of things?

You have benighted yourself in the hopes of gaining a night.
Why not enlighten oneself to the delights of what is, what has been, what will be?
Shed your insanity for Truth.
There is no room for the "quagmire of effete speculation"
within this process.
Your jalopies shall be dead by morning.
That is when the moa shall arrive, greeting your clavicle with a cheery hello.
For you have opined yourself, while I opened myself.
There shall be no more flerning!
Not like a rock, not on the couch. Nor shall there be a process of flerning
near or on the couch. No!
Apropos this shall be quite unnerving.
Believe you me to be profligate? Believe you me to be terse?
Believe you me to be over-talky and judgy?
Believe you me to be not what I am, or desire to be?
Believe you me to have wild sexual desires that over-bear friendships that I've loved?
Believe you me to be constantly upset?
Ever holding grudges? Evil. Why don't you come out and say it?

So you have said. So my heart broke for you.
So neither have I been able to continue our sometime friendship.
For I feel one thing and that is defeated, judged and disliked by you.
It is not that I hold a hatred,

The equinoxes came and went.
The appeal was ad hominem, as are many things.
And there is a lesson. Things are ephemeral.
The reality of this is all to knowed.
I am no yenta.
I do not live among the paraphinalia of head shops.
"The absense of refridgeration, a good place to store meat for leaner times is in the bodies of other huters who will return the favor when fortunes reverse."

Forgive me the malapropisms.