Fire

Fire today,
Here burning inside me.
The feiry water flames
Keep me just below
The finish line of despair.
There's a strand of golden hair,
And everyone wants to touch that gold.

We lay our lies upon the table
The hurt in your eyes
For the tempos unnerving
Your careful disguise
And the canopy of reality
Covers you, it covers me.

And all we have to do is choose.

there stood a lily

There stood a lily,
Tall and proud.
Elegant and white
Stem of green,
It had a fragrance of beauty,
And was enjoyed by many.

Mallory

Once I sat inside your livingroom.
We were watching a movie for kids.
There were toys strewn about,
Your mother was embarressed.
It was a time before your
Life took a turn, your eyes learned.
You were a child, I was a child.
We both cried when we were young.
You got tattooed after I moved.
And we're not yet done.

Soft

I whispered to a dreamer
And thinking not of his life,
Felt that in my own somewhere
Our souls must have touched.

I had an amazing dream.

I would love to share it with you.

I was standing on the top of my childhood home.

It was cool and warm at the same time.

There had been a storm.

The world was beautiful,

The sky awas incredible.

There was no bustle, there was no business.



The sun was rising and the wind was in the trees.

People from my childhood were there.

They were all sleeping except for me.



The water was dark,

The sky was brighter with every moment

So purple, it seemed as if I could have tasted that moment.



It was more than a dream.

It was an experience,

One of such unspeakable beauty...



I long for that.

I do.

No one will take me there.

I was flying, flying,

In a vessel made of paper,

Just flying on the water.

Mother told me not to fly too far.

I was a little girl again.

Like the last time I was really happy.

For a moment, my life was where it belonged.



Alas, the only goodness in my life

Comes to me in slumber!

What good is waking when

Such beauty is to be found in sleeping.

I long after the beauty and the safety of

A world that longs for me to explore it

As much as I long to be in it.



There were no tears.

Storms yes. Mighty storms.

It wasn't always safe there, in that dream world

There were times when things would go wrong.

Where I would wander too close to the edge of the world,

And then fall off of it.



But then there was so much awe.



The leaves were of autumn.

The sky was full of color.

The water was soothing.

So much was there.

Lies. Lies. Lies.
Little lies are like a swarm of bees.
Each sting slowly kills.
How can I live in this deception?

Lies, lies, lies.
I am responsible for myself.
I am doing well.
I have to push onward.

Reorientation.
I don't want to hurt anyone.
For fear of causing it to spread.
Lies, lies, lies.

For the sake of her sanity
For the sake of guilt
Lies, lies, lies.
Promises broken to myself.

Because of the complicated factors
Lies, lies, lies.
For lack of beauty and joy.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.

Apologies.
My apologies.
Childish.
Childish.
What do you do when you are childish about things?
Making it everyone else's problem now.
Take responsibility,
My inner adult says.
Pout,
My inner child whines.
I go away.
I hide away.
Childish.
This is something I must do.
So I cower here
Instead of taking part of my life s I should
Maybe I'll catch the next bus.
Maybe I'll catch the next train.
I'm too old.
I feel like I'm an old person stuck inside of me.
I feel like I'm annoying everyone around me.
Like I'm useless and senseless
Like I'm a burden.
Like I can't be, shouldn't be.
Even this very second, I am gone.
There is nothing to do.
There is no place to go.
I hope I left my phone on silent.

I left my heart on silent.