Wednesday, August 26, 2009

The blankness in the sky
on the page
like the paper's edge
slowly
sharp
not unlike the
razed field
stubble in the fold
failed.
silent and
dying.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Dream

There was a beautiful girl sitting there.
She was young, in the glory of her youth.
Much younger than I.
Her white dress was unstained.

There was an old man, crooked and arrogant.
Unrepentant of his ways
He had devoted much to his work, and was paid
Handsomely.
His handsome payment he thought of himself.

He reached out for her golden hair
She ran away to the library.
He could afford her and anyone else he wished to buy.
So she worked for him.
She worked very hard, but her resolve was unbreakable
Her dreams were untamable.
Her dress was unstained.

She ran away to the library after hours.
The boys from the block would play there
Read there, study there.
They were many and few.
A group of five came to tease her daily
And she joined in the play.
She was a child. They were children.

One day a young boy fell in love.
He decided that this beautiful young girl
Had a heart to be caught and that he could do this.

He tried and failed repeatedly
It was not that this girl wanted marbles he found out.
She did not desire for him to spout sonnets.
She knew all of them better than he did anyway.
His young friend then suggested something he'd read about once.

So the boy in love stole his mother's finest linen from his freshly made bed.
He built a table beside the library.
He collected candles and brought them about.
Made some sandwiches and waited.
The girl was quite hungry he knew.

He handed her a sandwich...a candlelight sandwich.
She laughed at him
Her laughter brought wind.
The wind blew his mother's finest linen into the fire
It ignited and blew away.
The boy, defeated cried out.
The girl, amused gave him a thimbleful of joy to drink at a later time
And she ran away to her horrible home with the crooked man.

The boy loved her and became a year older.

This time it would work.
His young friend helped him.
They built one thousand kites together out of the storybooks they read.
They attached the bindings and the pages.
They painted each with hope.
They found a length of string and rope.

The young lady, ever inquisitive, ever elusive,
Decided to come upon and enquire what it was they had achieved.
He covered her eyes, set her upon his own knee.
They sat in a chair together.

The kites filled the sky.
Her laughter brought the wind.
The chair inched its way into the great blue
And they flew together into the sunset.

The colors of the sky stained her reality.
The painted kites glowed proudly,
Dotting the clouds.
The clouds smiled on the two children.

She held him and knew that now...
Now...nothing could stop them from flying.

Undertow

I believe right now if I could I would swallow you whole.
I would leave only bones and teeth.
We could see what was underneath.
You would be free then.

Once I thought only tears could make us free
Salt bearing down to the bone
Like sand against the stone
Against the shoreline.

I am friend to the undertow
I take you in. I don't let go.
And now I love you.

I wanted to learn all the secrets from the edge of a knife.
From the point of a needle,
From a diamond,
From a bullet in flight.
I would be free then.

I am friend to the undertow.
I take you in.
I won't let go.
And now I have you.

I wanted to see how it would feel to be that sleek.
And instead I found this hunger is making me weak
I believe right now if I could I would swallow you whole.
I would leave only bones and teeth.
We could see what was underneath
We would be free then.


-Ms. Vega

Monday, August 10, 2009

Hey now, goodmorning, it's only five-thirty.
I love you more than you ever could know.
I want you with me, yet you are elusive.
This time I won't ask you to go.

We should get up now, everyone's waiting,
They want me safe and they want you gone.
Lying to them that I don't lie beside you.
They'd say, "Just try to move on."

Stop this. Facts are facts.
Just relax. Let's think. Let's go.
Alright, my morals will end.
Nobody needs to know.

I want to tell you how handsome I think you.
I want to take you all over the place.
New York or Seattle, or New Mexico.
You brush back the hair from my face.

You have ignored me, and pushed me to your side.
You don't remember the best things you say.
I cannot hold you, or see you, or have you.
Never, tomorrow nor today.

I have been building a house out of paper.
A home, deep inside, safe, at the back of my heart.
With you, a career and a dog and a baby.
You ruthlessly tear it apart.

I have been living alone in this fortress.
These comforting stones I put up lest I break.
Your silence is killing me, why can't you see this?
I've made another conscious mistake.

Alright, fine, clip these wings.
It's not worth saving sand.
Go on, play your games.
No one will understand.

I panic, you hold me, and whispered to calm me.
Whispering things I was a fool to believe.
Congratulations. You finally got me.
How many times will I be decieved?

I decipher your letter. What's lost in translation?
I can't begin to understand why
Why would you take me and treat me as you did,
When you really are saying goodbye?

Friday, August 07, 2009

The Queen and the Soldier

The soldier came knocking upon the queen's door.
He said "I am not fighting for you anymore"
And the queen knew she'd seen his face some place before,
And slowly she let him inside.

He said "I've watched your palace up here on the hill,
And I've wondered who's the woman for whom we all kill,
But I am leaving tomorrow and you can do what you will,
Only first I am asking you why."

Down the long, narrow hall he was led,
Into her room with her tapestries red,
And she never once took the crown from her head.
She asked him there to sit down.

He said, "I see you now and you are so very young,
But I've seen more battles lost than I have battles won,
And I've got this intuition-'says it's all for your fun.
And now will you tell me why?"

Well the young queen she fixed him with an arrogant eye.
She said, "You won't understand and you may as well not try,"
But her face was a child's and he thought she would cry,
But she closed herself up like a fan.

And she said "I've swallowed a secret burning thread.
It cuts me inside and often I've bled."
And he laid his hand, then, on the top of her head
And he bowed her down to the ground.


"Tell me how hungry are you, how weak you must feel,
As you are living here alone and are never revealed,
But I won't march again on your battlefeild."
And he took her to the window to see.

And the sun it was gold though the sky it was grey,
And she wanted more than she ever could say,
But she knew how it frightened her and she turned away,
And would not look at his face again.

He said "I want to live as an honest man.
To get all I deserve and to give all I can,
And to love a young woman who I don't understand.
Your highness, your ways are very strange."

But the crown, it had fallen, and she thought she would break,
And she stood there ashamed of way her heart ached,
And she took him to the doorstep and she asked him to wait.
She would only be a moment inside.

And out in the distance her order was heard
And the soldier was killed, still waiting for her word
And while the queen went on strangling in the solitude she preferred,
The battle continued on.






~Suzanne Vega

Small Blue Thing

Today I am
a small blue thing
like a marble or an eye.
With my knees against
my mouth I am
perfectly round.
I am watching you.

I am cold against your skin
You are perfectly reflected
I am lost inside your pocket
I am lost against your fingers
I am falling down the stairs
I am skipping on the sidewalk
I am thrown against the sky
I am raining down in pieces
I am scattering like light.

Today I am
a small blue thing
made of china,
made of glass.
I am cool and smooth
and curious.
I never blink.
I am turning in your hand.

Today I am
a small blue thing
like a marble or
an eye
I am cool and smooth
and curious
I never blink
I am turning in your hand
turning in your hand
turning.


~Suzanne Vega